Let it go

I am not a big country music fan, but I heard this song today as I flipped through the radio stations on my way home from work. Maybe it should be my new anthem as I start a new year. The words brought me to tears because I do stand at a crossroads and I am searching to find what happens next in my life. I have decided I get to decide this time. It is time to take control and stop just letting life happen to me. I need to stand tall and let the past be the past. I know that I will never stop grieving for Noah, but I have to forgive myself for how it ended. I made a choice. That is it.

Let it Go-Tim McGraw

I've been caught sideways out here on the crossroads

Trying to buy back the pieces I lost of my soul

It's hard when the devil won't get off your back

It's like carrying around the past in a hundred pound sack[

Today I'm gonna keep on walking

I'm gonna hold my head up high

I'm gonna leave it all behind

Today I'm gonna stand out in the rain

Let it wash it all away

Yeah wash it all away

I'm gonna let it go

Oh yeah I'm gonna let it go Oh yeah

Skeletons and Ghosts are hiding in the shadows

Threatening me with all the things that they know

Choices and mistakes, they all know my name

But I'm through holding in and holding onto all that pain

I know I know I know I've been forgiven

I know I know I know I'm gonna start living