Enough

I know I have been silent for awhile. I may be gone for awhile as I just don't seem to have enough time or energy to do all of this. The divorce is getting quite ugly and we head back to court next Monday to finally determine temporary orders as M and his attorney have decided to play stupid and dispute what was agreed to at the last hearing. Whatever. I can play that way. He just saw the last of the girl who had just a tinge of guilt over not compromising. Now, there is no bending or budging. I am not giving in.

Monkey is sick once again. It is truly more than I can bear at this point. Diagnosis: sinus infection. Big surprise. I really don't understand what is causing all of this. The poor baby has not slept in several nights due to very yucky cough. I can only hope that the antibiotic kicks in soon and he feels better. My pediatrician did agree to retest his antibody level and see if the pneumovax worked. I don't have a very good feeling about things. I am going to shove it out of my mind and call this illness a fluke. My plate is full and I am not sure I am up to this. If I must face it, I will, but if anyone is listening, please let Monkey be okay. He has had enough to deal with. He and his Mama just need some peace.

I am sorry for not keeping up and for my silence. I miss this space. It is truly one of the few places I feel understood. Thank you for that. I will try to update more often, but I am just so overwhelmed at the moment.